Hi, my name is Jen 🙂
But who the hell is Jen? That’s the best question ever, and I’m so sorry, I can’t answer it now… I could type in my labels, like “mom of 4” or “wife” or… I don’t know. But – trust me – I have a lot of them.
Why is this blog here?! That’s an easier question.
I work as a free-lance writer and translator. In this summer (2021) I’ve broken down. And you can take as I mean. In April my gynecologist diagnostised something in my womb. I felt myself sick, tired, burned-out. It seemed, that that problem will be solved but in the middle of July I’ve lost my inspiration. I couldn’t write anymore. I’d just sat in front of the blank page of MS Word and starred on it. And I had now I idea, how should I feel, think, or play with the words. I felt me lost. I felt me empty.
After the first huge shock I started to realize, that there is a big issue with me and I have to save me somehow. I noticed, that I need to take time to heal something inside me, but I had no idea where and how should I start it. I’ve created this blog, but I didn’t know why. I wanted to share… my ideas? My oppinions about the world? My thoughts? Dunno, really. But I felt the calling to do this. And I felt me a very bad, lazy person to write here nothing…
Since then, 4 months passed away, and now, I’m here. Why? An another simply question. Because during this time I’ve dug so deep in my soul and I found so much things to heal; I’m on a so different path as my friends, that there is nobody who understands me. And – to be honest – I also don’t understand them, as well. We talk the same language, but we have totally different problems, and I started to feel, that our path has came apart slowly. I started to feel myself separated and lonely. That’s the reason why is this blog here.
Now you could ask, why I didn’t take just simply a journal or a notebook and started to write in there? Also a good question. And it’s not a secret. This path, what I’ve chosen is tricky, full with unwaited surprises (like the Labyrinth of Jim Henson). It was a hard work to find answers to my questions and those answers resulted much more questions. Who am I under the layers of the society? Who is my authentic self? Why I feel what I feel? Man, what the heck is this in and around me?!?! And, I think, this is the point, which will come once in everybody’s life.
So, if you are here, welcome to my journey. First and foremost, this is not what it’s seem to be. This is just a blog. I won’t tell you, what to do, I won’t tell you, how to live, I won’t (hopefully) give you practical “do-your-life-better” tips, because I have no idea, how can I make YOUR life better. Or my life. Or anybody else’s life. This blog is about me, my healing-path, what I found practical, what tools could help me and how could I use them etc. If you stay with me, I appreciate it. Really ❤ Maybe you’ll find here something, what has the benifit to you, too. If you leave now, thanks to drop in on me 🙂
I can’t promise a lot of things. I don’t know anything – what and how will coming to the surface. I have no plans to this blog. Neither a sale everything plan, nor a how to get 10k subscribers in 1 hour plan. But what I can promise: this blog will be cruelly honest and authentic.
So…
Let’s get started 🙂 Welcome abroad! ❤
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